I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for my sponsor calling me out, for practicing two way prayer, and for my boyfriends 2 year anniversary today. I’m grateful for a sunny morning, for messages from God for a friend speaking at a meeting yesterday morning and for learning how to slow down.
Good morning my friends and happy Monday! I know I've said this to you before but, starting the week off with you beautiful people is really at the top of my gratitude list every Monday morning :)
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and while you were hopefully relaxing, did you have a chance to listen to Episode 26 of Breakfast with an Alcoholic? A dear friend of mine shares his story along with Bill W’s so I’m not going to spoil anything today. Take a listen, you definitely don't want to miss it ;)
Above I mention two things a) my sponsor was calling me out yesterday and b) I finally tried two way prayer. For anyone who isn’t familiar - two way prayer is writing down a question you have for God about a situation, what to do next etc., meditating on that question and then writing down every single thought that pops into your head. After you have written, you read back what you wrote and filter through what was yourself (any selfish, dishonest, self-seeking thoughts) and what was intuitive from God.
It was a really beautiful experience and for me, I had this moment of frequency that I could feel in my heart. There were specific words that kept circling around in my mind, so I was writing those down and then all of a sudden…nothing.
I called my sponsor like uhhhh did I do this wrong (there's no wrong way to do it by the way)? Earlier in the day, like I said my sponsor was calling me out and/or helping me identify where I am standing in my own way. I have been avoiding two way prayer because honestly, I was afraid of what would come out.
But, I am my own worst enemy so after a centering conversation with her, I pushed myself to do it. Overall the outcome was, I need patience, tolerance, understanding and I learned that I’m not just physically or emotionally tired, I am spiritually exhausted.
So, my goal this week is devoting sometime to reconnecting with myself, resting my spirit and spending a little more time talking to God. And with that, I hope anyone who is physically, emotionally or spiritually tired takes all the time they need to rest. I hope we are all a little extra patience with ourselves this week and sending everyone a little extra love.
See you again on Thursday :)
With love,
Jane
I'd never heard of 'two way prayer' - this post has been an education! Thank you.