I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a sense of calm for the first time in a long time, for feeling recharged and hopeful. For meeting with my sponsor, for knowing I don’t need to rush everything, for our orchid still being alive and for the Christmas trees they are starting to set up on the sidewalks.
Good morning my friends! I hope everyone had a lovely weekend, a wonderful holiday, and that everyone is feeing rested and ready to start the week :)
A few things- has anyone ever felt weirdly emotional during the Thanksgiving Day Parade? There were multiple times that I almost burst into tears and for the life of me, I don’t know why. But my boyfriend and I went to see the floats lined up the night before so a) to see Santa’s sleigh in real life was so fun and b) to see the floats in person and then rolling down the street to Macy’s on TV was really amazing. The waterworks though…I don’t know if that was necessary.
Also, keeping our orchid alive may seem like a pretty simple thing however, I must tell you that I was previously known for not being able to keep a succulent alive..how do you kill a succulent??? I don’t know but I did and so our thriving orchid is a very big deal to me.
And finally, I met with my sponsor yesterday and I shared with her how, since I'm starting to come up on a year, I’m feeling all of this pressure to be on Step 9 or a Step way ahead of where I am (I'm back on Steps 1,2 and 3). She assured me that by no means should I rush through the Steps because I feel like I have to. She got me thinking about how others will sometimes wish you a long and slow recovery. I’m really starting to understand what the means now - to me, there is no rush to get through the Steps because after? I’ll just do them all over again and I will keep doing them for the rest of my life.
So, I hope everyone knows they don’t ever have to rush, wishing everyone a long and slow recovery and I hope you all have a wonderful week this week! I will see you beautiful people again on Thursday :)
With so much love,
Jane
Calm, hopeful and recharged. My wish for the world.