I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for finishing Step 3 yesterday and for starting Step 4. I’m grateful for my sponsor and my friends who keep me sane. I’m grateful for early mornings, productivity, feeling motivated to get things done, for my parents and for another bud on the orchid blooming.
Good morning friends! Happy Monday and as always, I hope everyone had a lovely weekend full of rest, rejuvenation, relaxation, and whatever makes you feel fulfilled on the weekends :)
I’m realizing that last week I shared about how I had been in a funk, which I am pleased to report that I did come out of, however, today I’m just a little sad.
The weekend was challenging and I’m feeling isolated within myself. I did finish Step 3 and start Step 4 with my sponsor which was wonderful and I'll share more about on Thursday. I’m so happy that I’m still keeping my orchid alive and yet another bud has bloomed.
My sponsor, my friends and AA definitely kept me level headed this weekend. Oh and… I got another tattoo on Saturday.
I called our very own T.B.D to ensure that I was making a logical decision with said tattoo (which it was confirmed that I was). I got a little ocean wave on my arm which is a reminder of home and my roots to me.
I grew up by the beach in New Jersey and the ocean has always been something that has absolutely terrified me but I’ve always felt so connected to. The ocean is chaotic and calm. Powerful and peaceful. Tempting and dangerous.
It’s ruled my the moon but has a mind of its own. The Jersey Shore, the beach in the summer time, is one thing. But in the winter time, standing on the boardwalk looking over the dunes at the ocean…those are the times I have felt the most peace.
So now, forever on my arm, is a reminder of peace, a reminder to ebb and flow just like the ocean, a reminder of where I come from. A one year sober anniversary gift to myself.
With that, I hope anyone going through a challenging time knows that it will pass. Right now we are in an ebb and there will be a flow to follow, we just have to hang in there :)
And before I go, in case you missed it yesterday…we opened up a gratitude discussion thread that I am going to personally urge you as well to post your own gratitude list in!!
If you already have the Substack app you know what to do but if you don’t…below you will find the steps on how to add your own list ;)
I look forward to hearing what you’re grateful for and I'll see you again on Thursday!!
Gratitude Discussion Thread Steps:
Download and install the Substack App:
Open the app and tap the Chat icon. It looks like two bubbles in the bottom bar, and you’ll see a row for the chat inside. Step 2: Open the Chat!
Fill your heart with love and gratitude and write your gratitude list!
Step 3: Write the List
With so much love always,
Jane
I’d like to point out that relying on me to “confirm” the logic of decisions, is, itself, a potentially questionable, slightly illogical act. But glad you like your tattoo.
Lovely post, Jane, and your orchid is magnificent!