I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful to have rested this weekend, for walks through Central Park, for my parents joining me to celebrate my anniversary this afternoon, for time together, for coffee and for a quiet morning.
Good morning my friends and happy Monday :) As always, I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and hopefully you all had some time to relax!
I’m excited to report that the funk I have been in for the past few weeks is finally starting to lift!!
This weekend, I spent some time writing out resentments (have 20 something done out of 40 something) and had this wonderful epiphany that one of the resentments I need to do is on myself….I’ll let you know how that one goes…
But overall, I am definitely starting to feel better. Less funky and angry and sad. It always passes eventually :)
Today is also the anniversary meeting at one of my home groups and I am so incredibly happy that my parents will be there to celebrate with me.
My parents have always shown up - whether it was an art show I was in, a belt test when I was in karate, a football game when I was cheering, a portfolio review when I was applying to colleges - no matter what it was they were always there.
I don’t think any of us imagined that they would be at an AA meeting with me but the point remains that no matter what - they are there.
And I know some people don’t have that same luxury which is why today I am the most grateful for my parents. For their constant love and support.
So to anyone who feels like they don’t have that same support, please know all of us her at Thanks For Letting Me Share support you - no matter what.
Sending so much love today and always, I hope everyone has a great Monday and I will see you again on Thursday!
xo
Jane
Jane, we are so proud of you and love you so much. We are with you and will show up for you no matter what. Always.
Congrats on making it through the funk! A couple of weeks ago my son and I were talking about how he has learned so much these last eight months about coping with his anxiety and depression. He said he really doesn’t have anxiety anymore (yay!), and he now knows how to handle the depression. He said the low periods used to last for months. And then he noticed he would be in that state for weeks. Now, sometimes it’s only days that he has to deal with it, and he knows he has to keep showing up and doing what he know he needs to do daily until he comes out of it. It’s easier, he said, because now he trusts that he will eventually come out of the funk.
And how cool that your parents came! Today I sent Jonah a screenshot of a “memory” that popped up from 10 years ago: his being inducted into the Junior Beta Club. Then I wrote: “Next up, graduation from <long-term treatment program>” which should happen in the next couple of months. I’m just as proud (maybe more?) to be cheering him on in this milestone as any other accomplishment in his 21 years.
I know there may be some out there who don’t have that same support. If that’s you, and you’re reading this comment, this is for you:
You’re doing it! Don’t stop!!! You are awesome!