I am so grateful to be sober today. I am grateful for therapy this morning and a beautiful day. I am grateful for my family, my friends, my home, the food in the fridge, the clothes on my back, my journals, my sober life, and the simplicity I can have if I let myself. I’m grateful for the book I’m reading that I can’t put down and for my warm cup of coffee.
Good morning my friends!
As always, I hope everyone is having a lovely week and is gearing up for Hallo-weekend :) PSA - The holidays can be a super challenging time starting with Halloween, I am here if anyone wants or needs to chat and if this is your first sober holiday season…I PROMISE it is possible to get through it without drinking!
So today I sat in the shower for 38 minutes. I set my alarm for 7:45, didn’t get up until 8, got out of the shower by 8:38, got ready and sat down for therapy at 9. I didn’t rush. I am tired of rushing.
I didn’t impose this sense of urgency that is only created by myself. Work starts in 6 minutes, I won’t have time to pray or journal before then but that is okay I can do those things at any point today. “God, please be with me until I can be with you” is a short little prayer that helps me.
Not everything has to be so rigid. Not my morning routine, not the way I pray, not the way I write. Not everything has to be rushed and I am really hurting myself by constantly moving from one thing to the other without any space or thoughts in between.
Today I am going slow. Peacefully and calmly. We are doing a lot of heavy lifting work in therapy. And I am tried. But I don’t have to amplify that by giving into what I think other people want.
Today I am going to do what I want and that is - getting everything done but at my pace. Taking time to really absorb what we are talking about in therapy. Taking time to sip my coffee, thoughtfully write my gratitude list, check in with my sponsees, connect with my sponsor. But none of it is going to be rushed or anything I don’t want it to be.
So if I can help anyone today I hope it’s through the gentle reminder to do your thing, and do it you way. Just don’t drink ;)
Xx
Jane
Well, I can report that your post helped me today. And I love reading that you are in this slow and calmer space today.