I am so grateful to be sober today. I am grateful for the lovely time I had with my parents on Thursday & Friday, for little messages from HP, for patience and for willingness. I am grateful for the way the sun pours into the apartment, for the new needle point I got over the weekend, for my sponsees and for coffee.
Good morning my friends!
Hope everyone enjoyed the weekend and it was as lovely as it could be for you :)
We’ve officially entered that time of year here in NYC where it’s far too cold to sit outside so I’m sitting on the floor inside, in the sun, so I can still at least get some vitamin D.
Over the weekend I heard a wonderful qualification, one filled with spirituality and gratitude for being sober. I’ve heard this person before and they taught me “write your day down in pencil because God may have other plans.” However, one of the shares from the group has really been sticking with me. Someone said that life is an adventure when you are trusting in God.
I really loved that because I want life to feel like an adventure. Sometimes all it takes is just that one time where you hear something and it’s so simple and just makes so much sense.
Belief in and faith in your Higher Power are two different things. I can believe I have a Higher Power all day long but when I put my faith into that power greater than myself, that’s when the magic happens, the adventure starts.
Right now, life still looks pretty rigid. Structured and filled with self will, very little room for the excitement of spontaneity or the day changing because God may have other plans - my day is pretty much always written down in pen.
I guess it took that one person's share for me to really see that I don’t want life to look so rigid, I want it to be this sober adventure that may not always be fun but I have the awareness of God's presence in every little (or big) shift. Not the frustration of when things aren’t happening the way I’ve planned.
So later when I pray, I’m going to ask HP to help me see my life as an adventure, and for HP to be present with me. And I am going to try not to be so rigid today and while what I’m seeking might not happen instantly, I can trust that over time it will.
xx
Jane
What a great concept! I’ll be thinking about that today.
Yes! This was so hard for me at first. Yes, I have my "routines" to keep me on track but letting go and "letting God" as they say 🙏 is something else! It requires faith but can be anxiety-producing for the 🙋♀️control freak in me!🤣🤣