Evolution, Dinosaur Bones and Sobriety
Daily Gratitude List - March 6th, 2023
I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a good weekend, for communication and adventures with Timmy. I’m grateful for a quiet morning, warm water with ginger and coffee. I’m grateful for realizing how to do things differently, for seeing those things in action, for being productive but still cozy in bed and for learning how to add self-care into every day not just the weekends.
Good morning, friends! As always, I hope everyone enjoyed the weekend, had sometime to relax and was able to add a little self-care in to your weekend routines :)
Timmy and I took a trip over to the West Side this weekend to visit the Museum of Natural History. We both haven’t been in years, and I have to say, as a 23-year-old, it was still spectacular to see the dinosaur bones.
While walking through the museum was probably the highlight of the weekend, I also saw the importance of not reacting right away or based off my first thought. Especially when it comes to feeling triggered or sad.
Previously I would have expressed being triggered through pure rage. But in all my praying to HP to help me change, I knew that I could a) not rage out and b) not wallow in how I was feeling either.
So, I paused, I asked for a few minutes to gather my thoughts and I reengaged more peacefully than I think I ever have before. And it still didn’t look perfect, but it was a step in the right direction.
I’ve also been learning that you can maintain boundaries, find compassion and tolerance, be a nice person and let go of defenses all at the same time. That doesn’t mean I’m losing the boundaries I have in place; it just means that I am still being a good person while knowing the places I am not willing to go.
Everyday I’m learning, adapting, seeing things in a new way. And it certainly isn’t always easy. But one of the most important things to me is to share that it’s possible. Because I know how hard it can be and I always want to remind all of you, that we are in this together.
So maybe, we take a little extra time to pause today or maybe we find a little extra compassion. But together, we will find our way.
Sending extra love and I will see you again on Thursday!
xx
Jane
Love reading your posts about you learning to open your heart and mind to doing things differently. Keep being amazing! I love you.