I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a sunny morning, for my plants and for our home. I’m grateful for my family, AA and the opportunity to help others. I’m grateful for being able to ask for help, for being able to openly share how I’m feeling, for finding trust and faith in HP, for good music and good coffee.
Good morning my friends!
Hope everyone has been having a lovely week and is gearing up for a lovely weekend whatever that may look like to you :)
I was going to say here that for anyone who believes in this stuff too - Mercury in retrograde is kicking my ass but then I fact checked myself and the retrograde ended on January 1st. So it’s actually life that is kicking my ass.
The past two weeks have felt very chaotic, everyone getting back into the swing of things post holidays but I took tomorrow off & Monday our office is closed so here’s to a long weekend and refilling my cup a little. We are also going to a concert tomorrow - Tool. May seem off brand for me but they are my favorite band and that doesn’t make me depressed. I just appreciate good music ;).
My first sober concert was the Red Hot Chili Peppers and while I used to get extraordinarily messed up at concerts, going to a concert sober really doesn't bother me. As a music lover (music is my love language for sure) it is SO nice to be present and see a person or band live in the flesh and really enjoy yourself. I do not however, recommend going to your first concert sober by yourself, it’s always good to have a sober friend go with you!
All of that aside I am not here to babble about concerts or Mercury today. I am here to share that I have no grand epiphany or tragic things to share. Despite the chaoticness I feel really okay. A little anxious here or there and there are definitely some weird shifts happening but I genuinely feel like it’s all going to be. Like everything is going to happen the way it’s supposed to and regardless of how I try to control things, stuff is just out of my hands.
A huge goal for 2024 is getting a handle on my emotions and I don’t know….this feeling of not really worrying may leave me but for now it feels really nice. Like this is how I was always supposed to feel and I just now got the memo.
But I really am just trusting that every situation, person and event and playing out exactly as i should and HP didn’t bring me this far to let me down now. That’s my favorite thing, HP isn’t ever going to let me down. I may be given the things I need vs want, but everything is a lesson and leading me towards something bigger.
So I don’t know…I’m a little frazzled dazzled because I’m trying to work and write here at the same time but hey….it’ll all work out one way or another :)
xx
Jane
I just realized life is kicking my ass 😂👌 ditto very much ditto