Growing Pains: Sober Girls Edition

Always Worried

Hello my friends!

Welcome to another week of Growing Pains: Sober Girls Edition :)

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If you’d like to read this on the website or you can listen, too: Sober Girls - Always Worried

I’m sorry for being here a little later than usual today, my time management skills have been lacking (and I’m choosing to blame that on fourth quarter but, not the point).

My lateness today is funny because I started the day with a plan and a to-do list but it only ever takes one thing to throw me off and send me into a spiral.

I can literally feel the worry start to rise in me. This is going to be late, I’m not going to make it here on time, I’m never going to be able to write, and the world is going to collapse. And the best part is, once that one little thing has thrown me off and I’m in the spiral…it’s so hard for me to find center again.

Worry happens to be a very common theme in my life, should anyone be surprised by that. Friends won’t text me back quick enough and I’m convinced someone got hit by a car (seriously..it’s an issue and ironically my own response time is typically that of three hours).

With all of this said, believe it or not I am starting to learn how to manage the worry. For example, I was sitting in an Uber on the way home to write, and we hit a lot of traffic. Perviously, I probably would have had a melt down but to me, the traffic was my Higher Power reminding me to slow down.

I was going to bail on the commitment I have tonight at 6:15pm and as I was debating if I should or not, the women I do the commitment with texted me that she has the flu and can’t be there. My Higher Power reminding me to show up and be present.

All of these little messages and reminders are all around me all the time, I just need to keep an eye out for them. And if I’m so wrapped up in worry, fear, restlessness etc., then I'll miss those messages. I do miss those messages. But starting to manage the worry to me, is starting to look for the messages in all of the things that cause me stress.

So, I’m sure once I hit publish on this I’ll worry that no one is going to like it. But I’m positive there is a message in that too somewhere. And if anyone is a worrier just like I am, let’s just try to remember at least for today that there isn't always a reason to stress. Love you all (and I do hope you like this ;))

With so much love always,

Jane