I Survived! (The Holiday Party)
Daily Gratitude List - December 18th 2023
I am so grateful to be sober. I am grateful that Christmas is almost here and to be spending it with my and Tim’s family. I’m grateful for Secret Santa with friends, for some time to myself, for coffee and waking up earlier this morning. I am grateful for my sponsor, for honesty and for hope.
Good morning my friends :)
As always, I hope everyone had a lovely weekend and for those who celebrate, I hope you’re feeling holly & jolly that Christmas is just a few short days away!
Update - I made it through the Holiday party!!! Thank you everyone who left a kind comment last week. Those comments truly helped me more than I can explain and is a beautiful reminder that we really never have to do anything alone.
Thanks to the helpful comments and tips from friends, I can now see how easy it is to just make people think you’re drinking. I had a seltzer with a lemon and naturally, everyone assumed it was a cocktail. No explanation necessary and only one person asked me what I was drinking.
I left when the crowd was getting just a little too tipsy and I woke up the next morning feeling refreshed (I got home at 11pm which is quite frankly WAY past my bedtime).
This morning however, it is really important to me to start getting back in the habit of a morning routine. I’ve shared before how I was putting too much pressure on myself - all of the things - but as of late I have been incredibly irritable and I believe that is because I have neglected myself in the morning. I used to get up, pray & journal and read pages 86-88 in the Big Book. I would pick a character defect to work on throughout the day & not every day looked perfect just because I was practicing a routine, but I would start the day much more grounded than I am now.
So today, I didn't go back to sleep at 7:30, after I finishing writing here I’d like to do a little journaling and reading and while I LOVE my job, logging on 15 minutes earlier than I need to does not make me a better worker amongst workers if that means I’m losing time to find center.
What I am not going to do though, is force myself to have a routine that looks exactly like my old one. I’ve grown since then and it’s time for some tweaks. But that’s the glory of it, today I have set the intention and now I have nothing but time to figure out what feels right, for right now. The only thing I can’t let myself do is slip back into being complacent.
So my friends, I’ll keep yah posted on what this new routine looks like but for now, I hope everyone has a lovely start to their week, thank you for reminding me that there is support to be found in every corner of the world, and let’s make this day super merry ;)
xx
Jane
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