If You Could Have Any Superpower, What Would It Be? Alcoholism.
This Week On Sober Diary
I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a long weekend and for being able to see my family on Sunday. I’m grateful for the relationship my parents have with Timmy, for a little extra sleep this morning and for my journals. I’m grateful for being able to write here, for the morning routine I have and for my favorite cup of coffee in the morning.
Good morning, friends!
As always, I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week and wishing everyone a happy Passover, Easter and/or Ramadan. Whatever you may celebrate I hope it’s happy :)
I’ve been trying to tap back into my creativity lately. Many of you know that I went to college for art and my goal at the time was to become a photographer. Along the way my hopes and dreams were quickly replaced with opportunities that would allow me to drink and drug as I pleased.
I’ve spent a lot of time sulking in the “if only”. If only I did things differently, took the right opportunities, if only I wasn’t a drunk. However, I have also spent a lot of time embracing my alcoholism and looking at it like a superpower.
Alcoholics get to connect with others in such a beautiful way, we understand each other on such a deeper level without even really having to say much. No matter where we came from, or what has happened to us we are all the same. All connected by the same common thread, and we have the power and the willingness to help so many other people. A superpower.
So, in reconnecting with my creativity, I want to be able to use my superpower and help other people too. I don’t really know what that looks like, but I do know that if I keep working on it, I will figure it out. If I keep trusting in HP, then I will find my way. Maybe I’ll go back to photography, maybe I find something completely new along the way that I absolutely love and suits me better.
Whatever it is, I really love this keep my head down and work on myself so I can be a better and happier person thing. There’s something right under the surface (kind of like a pimple) that is growing and growing, I can feel it. But I can’t pick at it or squeeze it out (like a pimple ;)) too early. I can’t rush it or force it, I just need to feel it and in time, I will know when it’s time to let it out.
And that my friends, is the biggest change I have seen in myself lately. I’m for once not worried, I 100% trust that HP is guiding me, that I’m doing the right things to find my way and the only thing I must do is continue doing what I’m doing. I feel like I’m on the right path again all the way around and it is incredibly reassuring and something I don’t have all the words for to explain.
So, my friends, let’s not squeeze our pimples too early, that will leave a scar ;) Happy holidays.
xx
Jane
THANK YOU!! For posting this! Never, have I EVER thought of my alcoholism as a Superpower. Always, the opposite, until reading this. What a wonderful attitude of gratitude in looking at out disease. God Bless. Love, De Vonn.
Ummm, it would definitely be invisibility and fire-starting for me! Oh wait, same thing…