I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for moving slow but also being productive, for a little extra rest and new books. I’m grateful for the things I’m passionate about, for being proud of my work, for my family, my friends and my partner. I’m grateful for AA and the tools I’ve learned, for my sponsees and a fresh day to try again.
Gooood morning my friends (: As always I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week and has something fun planned for the weekend!!
I’m still in a bit of a writing slump but over all I think I’m just a little down on myself. I have been SO in my head lately, everything is an overthought or I’m just not being very kind to myself and I think I need to let those thoughts pass I also need to take care of myself the most when these things come up.
What makes me feel good? What’s something small and nice I can do for myself? What will keep me from spiraling further into self depreciation? Maybe getting back to the gym (I’ve been bad with that lately) or getting to bed earlier and waking up earlier. I don’t know I just do know that these things always pass but what I would like to change is catching them earlier (now) before they get really bad.
So today I’m going to try and take it a little easier on myself, not upset that I slept a little late or flustered that I have to get ready for work quickly. Just moving from one thing to the next trying to stop the negative thinking in its tracks because so quickly those thoughts will consume me.
But if there is any message I have for a newcomer today it’s that at 2 years sober these things still happen and that doesn’t mean I’m doing something wrong in AA. That just means life is happening and it’s not always happy but growth happens when you choose to change.
So I’ll do my best to try and change today, and I might fail and if I do that’s okay too that just means I can try again tomorrow.
Xx
Jane