I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for warmer weather, for a beauty and Sunday morning and for a slow weekend. I’m grateful for good times with friends, honest communication rest, coffee, AA and for a fresh week.
Gooood morning my friends (: I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!
As I may have mentioned in passing, I have been having a hard time lately writing. Call it writers block if you will I just simply don’t know what to say. Everything isn’t as earth shattering as it was when I first got sober and that doesn’t mean I’m not still learning and growing but the tools I have on how to navigate situations hasn’t changed.
So today, instead of one long essay here are a few thoughts:
We spent Saturday night with great people who are also great friends. I was so scared to close the chapter on old relationships that were hurting because I didn’t think we’d be able to make new relationships. I didn’t think anyone would want to be my friend. But God or fate or whatever you choose/ want to call it, works right in front of your face sometimes (it’s not always that mysterious).
My sponsor recently pointed out to me that there are physical boundaries and mental boundaries as well. I may be getting better with the physical ones but there’s a lot to do with the mental ones.
Shit isn’t always easy. Old stuff comes up or new obstacles or life just just happens but I have forgotten about how to find happiness in all of the little moments even when it’s hard. And this morning, just sitting here typing and the sun is out and the weather is warm, I am happy. (Seasonal depression….is so real).
I might not always know what to say and that’s fine. There doesn’t always have to be words for everything and in that same breath, it’s okay to share what’s on your mind too.
Xx
Jane