Letter to Santa
This Week on Diary of a Sober Girl
I am so grateful to be sober. I’m grateful for my friends, my family, for doing service and for AA. I’m grateful for reading, for the heat in our apartment, for coffee and for early mornings at the park with the pup. I’m grateful for a short work week, for our little Charlie Brown Christmas tree, honesty and for places where I feel safe.
Goooood morning my friends! As always hope everyone had a nice weekend (:
The dog is currently in timeout so I’m taking these few minutes of peace to write and also as per usual I’m not sure what I want to write about.
While I know I mentioned it last week, with Thanksgiving upon us it’s important to remember that it’s just another day you can get through. Call, text, email, carrier pigeon - whatever you need to get in touch with your sober people do it because drinking or using is just not worth it this fine holiday.
I took the weekend to do absolutely nothing which I really needed and could use some more of, grateful for the days off coming up to rest and before we know it, it will be Christmas.
So, our apartment is already decorated, and I’ve been binge watching Christmas because every year the time just goes by fast and faster and if there’s anything I want from Santa this year it’s just for time to slow down a little.
I’m still feeling funky, I said to Tim yesterday that I feel like I’m in a hole and every time I try to get out of it I find myself deeper in said hole. And we were talking about how in just split seconds my mind takes me from A (normal thought) to B (catastrophic thought) and it just feels impossible to keep up with.
Someone asked me how I was doing yesterday, and I said okay and they asked why just okay and the only thing I could say is that there’s been a lot of change this year. Which is true there has been a LOT of change and time just keeps moving on and on and on.
So yes, all I would like for Christmas is for time to slow down, or for ME to slow down. To process and adjust and collect myself accordingly. To rest and spend time with the people I love. To catch up on reading, make a bunch of meetings, maybe meet a few newcomers and to remember that life isn’t always about what is immediately in front of you.
Anddddd maybe like a million dollars but that’s irrelevant (; Overall let’s just remember this week to slow down, we are exactly where we are supposed to be and above all else we don’t have to drink – Happy Tday everyone!
Xx
Jane Â