Mental Obsession & Grounding in Gratitude
This Week on Diary of a Sober Girl
Good morning my friends!
Hope everyone has been having a lovely week and if you are somewhere where it’s cold and snowy like it is here in NYC, I hope you are staying warm.
I am feeling a little funky these past few days, mainly because of the whole quitting vaping thing. I feel like a newcomer again, mental obsession is totally here and while I keep praying for it to be lifted, I also keep thinking about vaping. And this is all WITH the patch on. I have a whole new layer of compassion because when I got sober my mental obsession was lifted from day one. This is a beast…
But, with all of that said, I have done an extended gratitude list in a while and it’s feeling really appropriate to throw in today, to distract myself from the undying desire to vape, but to ground myself in some gratitude.
So without further ado, 20 things I’m grateful for today:
I am so grateful to be sober today.
I am grateful for the rage I felt last night, because it showed me how long it’s been since I last felt that kind of rage. That I have been better able to deal with anger and I knew how to deal with the anger I felt last night.
To feel secure in my program
For a job that I love going to everyday. That certainly isn’t perfect but it makes me happy, I feel proud of the work I do and I am passionate about growing and striving there.
For my family who always support me.
For my relationship, and the ways we have grown (and continue to grow) both individually and together.
I am grateful to live in New York and that my family isn’t far away.
I am grateful for really comfy hoodies, that make me feel safe and warm and cozy.
I am grateful for a connection with a Higher Power of my own understanding, who I can rely on fully.
I am grateful for my Peepa.
I am grateful for the one little star I saw outside the window last night (seeing stars can be very few and far between here in the city).
I am grateful for the “Iced” button on my Keurig.
I am grateful for choosing to be healthy.
I’m grateful for seeing an old friend on Tuesday and making an amends on Monday.
I am grateful for my sponsor who is truly such a light in my life.
I am grateful that my program is centered in love, kindness, tolerance, patience and understanding.
I am grateful to know that sometime all of #16 may fly out the door, but that is because I am human and I can always do better the next day.
I am grateful for understanding that I am a human who has human experiences, I am not a saint just because I am sober and have a Higher Power.
I am grateful for candles & a warm apartment
I am grateful for good music that fuels my soul
xx
Jane