I am so grateful to be sober today. I am grateful to have spent time with my family yesterday and for drives down the beach. I’m grateful for time to rest, for working the steps and for learning every day. I’m grateful for a beautiful morning, for coffee and for change.
Good morning my friends!
As always, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and were able to rest and recharge a little :)
Today I am so grateful to have spent time with my dad and family for Father’s Day. I know that Father’s Day can be an especially hard day for some. For dads who may have lost a child, men who may have lost their dads, dads who live far away, maybe strained relationships, anyone who doesn’t have a relationship with their dad. The same for Mother’s Day and any holiday that brings back painful memories or is a reminder of hard times. For myself…New Year’s Eve is a particularly weird day..
I’m sorry to those who struggle on days like yesterday, it’s not easy and I’m proud of you for making it through. And for me, it’s a kind reminder of why it is so important to be grateful for how simple it is for Timmy and me to get in the car, drive to my parents and spend the day with them. It’s so important to show up because that is something I was never good at before.
Next on my list of things I’d like to share today is - last week was a week from hell…was the moon full? It really was a tough week, honestly, it’s been a pretty tough month. However, there is a fresh week ahead and I get to kick it off by making amends today to someone who I haven’t seen since I got sober. Another example of being able to show up in ways, I never did while I was drinking.
And finally, I’m excited to report that Timmy and I got Apple Watch’s over the weekend! I know we’re late to the party here…but the goal in getting one is to hopefully be off my phone more without feeling completely disconnected. I.e., no email notifications, affirmations on my wrist (that aren’t buried beneath 373628283 other notifications) less news that overwhelms me, less frantically trying to dig my phone out of my bag because I felt it vibrate only to find that said vibration was a notification from yelp…
I’m hoping this watch will allow me to be more present, which I know sounds counterintuitive but it’s so easy to get lost and waste 30 minutes at a time when I pick up my phone to do one simple thing.
So today, I hope everyone can be a little more present where you’re able, and this week is not another week from hell ;)
Xx
Jane
YAY! You had me guessing all the way through until I'd got to the punchline, Jane! Hurrah to this last week being better! 🙌
It's hard to go around family when we're using. They always ask such hard questions like "how are you doing?"
I am grateful that my folks got to see me sober and finish the college degree that they had paid for 20 years earlier.
My father was dying of dementia at 87 and I was leaving St Paul in the morning, to go back to work in South Dakota.
I wasn't sure that he would even recognize me, but he was alert. As I was getting ready to leave, I said "you have been a pretty good father," and he replied "and you have been a pretty good son. After a few false starts." Yeah, he had recognized me all right!