I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a wonderful Easter with my family, I’m grateful for a little extra rest, for time to relax, for prayer and for being able to remember. I’m grateful for a clean apartment, for the opportunity to do better, for AA and for reading with my sponsor.
Goooooddd morning my friends (: I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and for those who celebrate wishing you a very happy Easter!
It’s getting to be that time of year again where it starts to get warm and the thought of a drink might be a little more appealing so….as a kind reminder the seasons will change again, the thought of drinking will pass but if we were to go back out again we can’t change that. It’s just not worth it and I’m here to chat if anyone needs it!
After Friday off and a relaxing weekend I am feeling so much more refreshed. I am feeling like I can tackle the week and all of the ones after until May when we go away on our annual Disney trip. However, the thought that keeps sitting with me is how do I be better about not getting so overwhelmed and not letting myself hit that point of extreme burn out.
There was a point where I was sending my sponsor my schedule and she would help me build in times for self care. I think I do practice self care enough but when you’re in the thick of it, the thick of things being so busy and bouncing from work to sponsees to meetings to reading to doing it all over again tomorrow, it can be really hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel.
So I think what it comes down to is the same old conversation I have with myself - I need to be better at saying no. Do I need time to rest but my friends what to have dinner? It’s okay to say no. Is anyone really telling my to work the extra 15 minutes, it’s okay to tell MYSELF no. No is just a word and I don’t ever have to say it angrily or in fear, the people who care about my will understand why I am saying no.
But I really do have to be better about it because when I over extend myself, people please and say yes to everything, I eventually become this venomous person who is snappy and mean all because I didn’t listen to myself all of those times before when I needed a break.
So today my goal is to be more conscious about when I need to say no, and why. Because nothing changes if nothing changes (;
Xx
Jane