I am so grateful to be sober. I’m grateful for a slow weekend, for speaking at a meeting last night and for everyone who showed up. I’m grateful for honest conversations with my sponsor, for my sponsees who help me so much, for grocery shopping, a clean apartment and for my parents.
Good morning my friends :)
I hope everyone had a lovely weekend and an even lovelier holiday!
Our apartment looks like a Christmas wonderland and I have decided to soak up every second of the season that I can because before we know it, Christmas will be here and I will be saying to myself yet again…”Where did the time go?”
Over the weekend I started to feel a little shift. Like I am on the precipice of change, like I can see a better way just over the hill but I have to make a few adjustments before I can get there. None of these changes are outward, all internal shifts that could lead me to a more spiritual place.
Something like deepening my prayer, taking more time to connect in the morning, asking for guidance on even the smallest of things. Something that is important for me to do is make sure these shirts are small and I’m applying very little pressure on myself.
When I start to think about them as big I tend to get scared and shut down. I start to feel like I just can’t add on any more big changes right now. But little things? Little tweaks those I can handle.
Because I definitely want to find that better way. I am certainly not perfect and I work my program hard, there’s a lot of things I do do but we are always supposed to be growing and evolving and deepening and I don’t want to find myself stagnant.
So my small shift for this morning is reading just a little bit of my new book, making that space for myself before the day takes me away. Making suer I send gratitude to my sponsee’s before I am sitting down at the desk for work and making sure that I make time to hit my knees. Because that was a little shift too, that seems to be working tremendously.
Lastly, as we move through this holiday season this is your friendly reminder that you are not alone. You have people in your corner, we can get through the season together and I am here if anyone needs to chat.
xx
Jane
Thanks for this.