I am so grateful to be sober today. I am grateful for my family, Timmy's anniversary coming up, for a sunny morning and for therapy. I am grateful for my relationship with my higher power, my sponsees who keep me sober, my candles and warm sweatshirts. I’m grateful for coffee, breakfast, to have a home and my sober life.
Good morning my friends!
As always I hope everyone has been enjoying their week and is gearing up for an exciting/restful/fun weekend :)
Just a general life, true diary of a sober girl entry, update for y’all today. Thursday’s have become a little stressful, writing here is on my mind, therapy first and diving right into work straight after. With the season change it’s been getting harder for me to find the will to get out of bed in the morning. It’s so comfy and cozy but so chilly outside…
But I am slipping into a routine that is working for me, like I mentioned last week - I am dropping that pressure I put on myself to do everything so structured. Prayer and mediation can come later, coffee after I post.
I started this job truly at the busiest time of the year, but it's so nice to actually enjoy the work I’m doing again, to look forward to seeing my colleagues, to feel proud of how far I’ve come.
I however, owe texts back to a few people (N if you’re reading this today, I’m sorry for the constant, never ending delay on my end. Please know you’ve been on my mind). I still need to make the bed, I’d actually love to flip the comforter and Timmy will only notice because I am mentioning it here. I also need to put the Halloween decorations away and how does this apartment that I clean so very often, still always need to be vacuumed.
I heard a really great speaker at a meeting last night whose story I actually can’t stop thinking about - she’s a true member of the “never had a legal drink” club. I am meeting with a sponsee tonight and another sponsee has decided to go to detox. I can not say enough how much admiration I have for her for continuing to return to AA. Because when I couldn’t stop drinking AA was truly wasn’t even a consideration.
I’m glad Halloween is over and we have officially entered the bermuda triangle of alcoholism. Like I said on Monday the holidays are hard but we most certainly don’t have to drink through them. And in just a few short days Timmy is celebrating 3 years sober!!!
I was talking to my sponsor about how this time of year is hard, but the desire to actually drink is not here for me. I don’t want to burn my life to the ground, I know it’s not worth it. I know the whole world doesn’t stop drinking when we do but oh man… I could do without “Thanksgiving Eve” and all of the drinking associations that come along with the holidays.
So most importantly today, if there is anyone struggling I am happy to chat. If your days are busy, if your life has gotten a little big, if time is flying by and that is slightly terrifying - You don’t have to do it alone ever.
Xx
Jane