I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a relaxing and fun weekend, I’m grateful for big meetings, for forgiveness, for my family and for rest. I am grateful for the lessons I’ve learned, the mistakes I’ve made, for coffee, my sponsor and my sponsees.
Good morning my friends!
As always I hope everyone had a lovely weekend and if feeling rested for the week ahead :)
My head is spinning a little this morning - had to get a little bit of stuff done for my side gig, have a pile of emails in my inbox from my main gig (do we work on the weekends now??) and I still have yet to get ready.
Yesterday we had a packed day full of adventure and friends however, by the time we got home we were exhausted so I did not clean and we did not do the laundry so I feel like this apartment is a disaster (I believe that feeling calm starts within your home, just a personal preference).
And oh so quickly the time just keeps ticking away. BUT it’s okay. Everything will get done. I am really trying to ground myself in at least prayer, gratitude, and a quick reflection in the mornings to set me up for the best day I can have.
Last week was so chaotic it felt like but I did not skip any of the above things all week and yah know what, I made it through pretty okay.
I hate New Year’s resolutions because I feel like they set at least me up for failure or disappointment. My resolutions have always been these grandiose things like… do yoga EVERY morning…NEVER have a bad day…and honestly that is just not life on life’s terms I think.
Sometimes I sleep until 8:30 because I can and that’s okay. I don;t have to wake up at 5am to be a good sober person. I most certainly don’t do yoga every morning but physical health is important so I do try to move my body through out the day so my fingers don’t take a “typing on a keyboard” permanent shape.
Sometimes I miss a reflection, sometimes I don’t pray through out the day until I’m in pain, sometimes I pray and then forget that I asked to be a better person. And all of that is okay. It’s how I learn and grow and those mistakes are how I remember why it’s so important to re ground myself.
So today, I’m not trying to be the BEST sober person, I’m just trying to do the best I can in this moment.
Xx
Jane
Jane, your last two posts have been full of growth and insight. To hear about how you care about your health and your body, to read about how you’re learning from your mistakes, it’s all amazing. YOU inspire ME to work to become a better person. I’m so proud of you Jane, my cup runneth over. 🥰🥰