The Effects Of Not Meditating For Months – And How To Fix It.

Daily Gratitude List - February 13th, 2023

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I am so grateful to be sober today. I am grateful for the beautiful celebration that was put together over the weekend, for genuine friendships that make me feel safe. I’m grateful for the painting my sponsor made for me, for things being fixable, for making space for gratitude and for willingness to be better than I was the day before.

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Good morning, friends and happy Monday! As always, I hope the weekend was spent resting, doing something you enjoy and listening to Season 2, Episode 28 of Breakfast with an Alcoholic. If you haven’t listened yet, that’s okay! I’ve linked it below so you can easily find ;)

Breakfast with John West, Author of Lessons and Carols

Lately, I’ve been feeling very frustrated, like I’m moving way too fast, and super insecure. Moving way too fast for me – is never good. I slip into the “hustle” vortex, and I forget that it’s okay to take time to pause, that I’m not the reason the world spins and my job will still function appropriately if an email sits until tomorrow. I’ve also been feeling super financially insecure, which is another vortex that is dangerous to slip into to…  

However, yesterday I went to the Sunday 10am meditation meeting which I haven’t been to in forever. I used to love that meeting. And then the new term started, and our meeting scheduled shifted. Anyway, at that meeting they do a one-minute mediation in the beginning, which used to fly by for me. Yesterday – that one minute felt like nine years.

During the mediation is when it dawned on me that I haven’t truly meditated in months. I’ve been slacking on praying; I’ve certainly taken my own will back and I missed my favorite afternoon meeting almost all week last week.

My new gratitude journal given to me by my friends, ask’s how I’m going to make space for gratitude throughout the day. Not only have I not been making space for gratitude in the middle of the day, but I also haven’t been making space for the things that help me, or the higher power that guides me either.

So today not only am I grateful for the above but I’m also grateful for my rent bill because at least I have a home. I’m grateful for the plane tickets I must buy soon because a family tip is truly a luxury. I’m grateful that my problems have solutions. I’m grateful for the gentle reminders from HP to get my shit together.

This week, I will get back into the habit of mediating and praying and I hope everyone can find a little extra space for gratitude today. In the meantime, I’ll see you again on Thursday!

xx,

Jane