I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for a wonderful night last night, for a little extra rest, for reading and for coffee. I’m grateful for old routines, for AA, for surprise messages and vacation being so close. I’m grateful for feeling okay, and for having love and tools in my life.
Gooood morning my friends (: As always, hope everyone has been having a wonderful week and there is something fun on the horizon for the weekend!
Today is just another Thursday where I am drained and don’t have much to say. We went to a Yankee game last night which was so fun - kind reminder that as sober people we don’t have to limit ourselves to sober activities. The game was just as fun with a sprite and a burger and I went got home at a reasonable hour and got a full nights rest. If I had been drinking I would have been wasted by the second inning, remembered nothing about the game, and I would’ve arrived back home promptly at 5ish am. I am INCREDIBLY grateful that that is not how I live my life anymore.
Other than that I’m working on getting into a better morning routine again. It’s short for now just a few minutes writing a gratitude list and I’ve gone back to writing some prayers. Makes me focus when I actually write them.
Today I am back to back in meetings all day and am hoping to make it to a meeting tonight and it’s dawned on my that sometimes I struggle with what to write about because life has gotten very simple. And I like it that way.
Yesterday, I was stressed and snappy and I apologized for that. I wasn’t super present at the beginning of the game because I was trying to just catch up on some work and I apologized for that too. But when shit happens, it doesn’t always feel so big anymore. I know what the solutions are, I know I need to let myself feel what I’m feeling. None of the tools I have are new and I know I can get through anything sober as long as I stay close to the rooms.
So - I’m sorry if I’ve been boring lately. I just don’t have much to report. And I personally am super okay with that (;
Xx
Jane
Having peace and calmness in your life is wonderful. And writing about the fact that there’s no drama in your life isn’t boring, it’s very comforting.
Yes, even when sober, “shit happens.” But when we use alcohol, other drugs or gamble things happen that did not have to happen.
If lightning strikes my house and it burns to the ground, “shit happens.” If I come home drunk, start frying a steak, pass out and my house burns to the ground, that is “bullshit happens,” when I am impaired.
Also, you did not forget the equally important (for your future), “reminder” that you gave yourself today: “I am INCREDIBLY grateful that that is not how I live my life anymore.” I also do that when I have to force myself to exercise or do dishes before going to bed etc. “I am really glad I did that,” which makes it easier to do that again.