The funny thing, and I realized this many years ago, was that I adopted a solution for the fear of sitting at home alone that involved sitting at a bar near my home alone. That was another bit of self-deception: That drinking was a cure for the loneliness and the fear.
Thank you very much--haven't seen him this morning yet, but do have video from yesterday that might be shared at some point.
There was a recent study of the effects of bird watching/feeding on people. It came to mind as you described watching the hawk.
and.....
Does it indicate looming insanity?
Asking for a friend.
1983 You’ve Had too much to think by Robert Ellis Orrall comes to mind....